About a week ago I upped my dose of Lamictal, and got the rash. It was a spindly red map, like that of those pictures of rivers and lakes taken from space. It covered my upper left leg. I was immediately taken off the meds. Now I’m in between with little to no meds. I’m spiraling again. I was feeling so good, and keeping a great perspective, hence the lack of posts. Everything was smooth for a few weeks and I had hope that I had found stability. I’m here to say, that isn’t the case unfortunately. More trial and error in store.
I’m currently not getting along with my husband, I feel uninspired, and I feel agitated. I’m sick of medicines that don’t work or those that poison me. I am, in the midst of it all, trying to keep my head as level as I can. I can’t go on any new meds for a few weeks because of the Lamictal allergy. I’m trying to use visualizations to keep my mind focused. We’ll see how those work. They appear to be working a little bit, as I’ve not totally dropped off the edge. I visualize myself being healthy and healed. Anything is worth a try at this point. Especially anything that isn’t a chemical.